2000 Monkeys
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xeniot 1999-11-09

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It seems like I am learning at an incredible rate. Learning how to see people through God's eyes. That's a trite statement until you realize how much God loves people. Dostoevsky says that it's easy to love mankind and hate your neighbor at the same time, and that's not the way God sees us. I don't know how to describe it. It's like that scene in the Matrix when Neo really sees the world for what it is - only this world is anything but fake on the inside.

Last week I was sitting outside and there was this woman taking pictures of an old man. I swear that if God ever wanted to take pictures, that's what he'd look like. She was talking with him and laughing, and when she looked into the camera (it was one of those beautiful old roloflexes with the ground glass screen) she smiled like she was seeing something secret, something only God had seen up until then. And I realized that's what I want to do. The strange thing is that science and writing are both ways of doing that. Science tries to discover the hidden secrets of nature; art tries to see the world of people and their lives in some new way.

So of course I talked to her. I might as well have resisted gravity. Only I didn't ask her for her phone number. Now I have to find her again.