o money
o death
o gun in my head, i tell this terribly to you
you who see love boiling unwanted
you who are all men's eyes and unwanted
you, impatient unsatisfied
in the apparancies and the surfaces
in the catechisms and the water baptisms and the speaking of magazine phrases
in the houses ten days old and the waiting for knocking
well Mrs Sudderly was knocked up and so she knocked me up and so you
have little to complain of regular hours and habits
father it was a god
an inexplicable infinite god of the profund night
with such a face so sweet and such hands
indifferent cruel, said this i made for thus
this i made that as night to touch you i should be pierced
and burnt, i love, unwhole
said his hands but his lips: i have no surfaces
all light, all light and weight and center
touch me and so on
explain reason to love
explain love to love
for it knows nothing and ignorant when cruel
and wise when ignorant it always seeks
and finds and you will not get far
being made of paper
i have not got far being made of it
far by skin and tendon, useless materials,
not crossed a sea nor stood on mountain
but that love has crumpled me up
and thrown me with a strange violence
hurtling through space
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